This is an e-mail that John sent out regarding our visit Christmas week to specialists at Simon Cancer Center at IUPUI in Indianapolis.
Met with Dr. Helft the specialist at IU this afternoon. It was a good trip over and back and he spent a lot of time with us discussing the issues and options.
The bottom line is he is not recommending chemo at this time. My oncologist here hinted that he felt that way as well. We will meet with him next week or so to re discus all of this.
The logic is that the cells growing in my lungs were spread there 5 years ago before treatment started. Not something that has been floating around and landed there recently. They may or may not ever grow into these spots (tumors). Chemo now wouldn't necessarily kill off additional cells and if it affected them at all it may just delay their growth a few months. The surgery I had may have in fact left me disease free perhaps indefinitely or perhaps for (who knows). It is best to see what emerges and go after that (surgery is best). Other factors that support this reasoning are that my tumor marker responds well when these things grow (so it is helpful in keeping tabs on things). Also it is a slow growing disease that shouldn't get out of hand provided surgery is an option.
We will process all of this but feel at this point it is all positive information and a logical plan. I'm thrilled to not undergo chemo. Please keep praying that I remain cancer free.
More later, Love, John
John continues to be content and cheerful, although recovery has perhaps slowed a bit. So much has been going on with the holidays that I forget today is just the three week mark.
Sometimes I have great peace and faith - sometimes not - but for sure, God is using this as an opportunity for more growth and for that we are thankful.
Please keep praying that all the cells in John's body will be structured in a healthy way so that he remains cancer free and that he gains strength. We know God has the power to completely restore his body and ultimately, that is what we hope for.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Recovery, Dr. Visits, etc.
John has been doing nicely recovering here at home. This surgery has been easier than the one in Sept. 08 and we are really thankful for that. Still, it is not an easy process but he is a real trooper.
Yesterday, we saw our local oncologist - something I was dreading as it just seems like they never have good news. This visit went pretty well and we were somewhat encouraged. He is sending us to the Simon Cancer Center in Indianapolis for a second opinion. He is not aware of other treatment options but since metastatic colorectal cancer is the IN Dr.'s specialty, he feels we should talk with him.
Dr. Romer (local oncologist) says that he has some patients that have had a recurrence but have remained cancer free after that. He also feels that the cells that grew into the latest tumors were there five years ago, which means it is likely slow growing which is good. With the removal of the tumors, Dr. Romer considers John to be disease free right now and we need to work on fighting a recurrence and that John is still curative. If the IN Dr. does not have a treatment plan, it is likely John will be put on oral Xeloda again.
Your prayers are important, needed and appreciated. Each day brings a new understanding of God, our relationship with Him and a deeper appreciation for one another.
Merry Christmas.
Yesterday, we saw our local oncologist - something I was dreading as it just seems like they never have good news. This visit went pretty well and we were somewhat encouraged. He is sending us to the Simon Cancer Center in Indianapolis for a second opinion. He is not aware of other treatment options but since metastatic colorectal cancer is the IN Dr.'s specialty, he feels we should talk with him.
Dr. Romer (local oncologist) says that he has some patients that have had a recurrence but have remained cancer free after that. He also feels that the cells that grew into the latest tumors were there five years ago, which means it is likely slow growing which is good. With the removal of the tumors, Dr. Romer considers John to be disease free right now and we need to work on fighting a recurrence and that John is still curative. If the IN Dr. does not have a treatment plan, it is likely John will be put on oral Xeloda again.
Your prayers are important, needed and appreciated. Each day brings a new understanding of God, our relationship with Him and a deeper appreciation for one another.
Merry Christmas.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Home
John was discharged from the hospital today, much to our delight.
He is doing extremely well and we're very pleased and thank God for his good progress.
He is doing extremely well and we're very pleased and thank God for his good progress.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Recovering
Via hospital wireless, I'm happy to report that John is recovering nicely and doing well. Much better than the last lung surgery in Sept. '08. We hope to leave the hospital tomorrow (Sunday), Monday at the latest if we stay on track.
The plan is to get his chest drainage tube out today, and then they can remove the epidural also. Only bad thing about this is that it is more difficult to control the pain without the epidural; however, the pain lessens significantly when that nasty chest tube comes out.
He does his respiratory therapy religiously and begs the therapists to walk more, but they limit him. Once he is unhooked from oxygen and has tubes removed, he should be able to move around more. He is eager to be cleaned up each morning and shave but is pretty tuckered out after that.
Our sweet daughter, Audrey, has been in an out amidst all her final exams and papers. Our son and his wife will be up from Kentucky again today.
Please keep praying.
The plan is to get his chest drainage tube out today, and then they can remove the epidural also. Only bad thing about this is that it is more difficult to control the pain without the epidural; however, the pain lessens significantly when that nasty chest tube comes out.
He does his respiratory therapy religiously and begs the therapists to walk more, but they limit him. Once he is unhooked from oxygen and has tubes removed, he should be able to move around more. He is eager to be cleaned up each morning and shave but is pretty tuckered out after that.
Our sweet daughter, Audrey, has been in an out amidst all her final exams and papers. Our son and his wife will be up from Kentucky again today.
Please keep praying.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Difficult Day
John came through surgery very well. He was resting in the ICU when we left him at 9:40 pm and he felt that it was a good day. He was happy to put the day behind him and was pleased that he had better mobility in his arms than his surgery last year and the surgeon did feel that his recovery would be a bit faster this go around.
Unfortunately, the prayers we have prayed have not been answered in the ways we have asked...first, that the Holy Spirit would manifest in a way that gave us assurance of healing, and more recently, that the surgeon would find nothing when he operated today and would be mystified.
In actuality, three places were found, one of which did not show up on the last CT scan. It could have been too small or new. All were confirmed cancerous. A portion of rib also had to be removed, so he is somewhat swiss cheese like on both sides.
The reality is that we don't really have anymore surgical options. We will have to see if the folks at Indiana University have treatment options for us and we're praying they do and that John responds well.
John is in good spirits. He is a real champion. I can't say enough about this gentle man and I am honored that he chose me to be his wife 27 years ago. We still feel like kids in love.
I was really grateful to have the kids with me today and other family and friends. They held me up. The kids are real pillars. They must have a really great dad who trained them well!
As son JR said today, Emanuel, God with us.
Unfortunately, the prayers we have prayed have not been answered in the ways we have asked...first, that the Holy Spirit would manifest in a way that gave us assurance of healing, and more recently, that the surgeon would find nothing when he operated today and would be mystified.
In actuality, three places were found, one of which did not show up on the last CT scan. It could have been too small or new. All were confirmed cancerous. A portion of rib also had to be removed, so he is somewhat swiss cheese like on both sides.
The reality is that we don't really have anymore surgical options. We will have to see if the folks at Indiana University have treatment options for us and we're praying they do and that John responds well.
John is in good spirits. He is a real champion. I can't say enough about this gentle man and I am honored that he chose me to be his wife 27 years ago. We still feel like kids in love.
I was really grateful to have the kids with me today and other family and friends. They held me up. The kids are real pillars. They must have a really great dad who trained them well!
As son JR said today, Emanuel, God with us.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Surgery Tomorrow
Tomorrow John heads to surgery to have the two places removed in his left lung. Saw the surgeon today for a pre-surgical consult. Although John had been claiming that he expected this surgery to be easier than the last, the Dr. said it would be equally painful. We know we'll be ok though, and I'll be with him every step of the way.
Surgeon also says that he will have to see about the ribs when he gets in there as one place is close to the ribs. We are of course praying that there will not be a need to disturb the ribs.
We were fortunate to receive prayer from a church in Redding, CA that has been having many wonderful healings. Many, many other churches and people have been praying as well, and I can't tell you what this means to us.
We have been doing very well. I have settled down a bit, been doing lots of praying and have had some good counsel. John is wonderful, just because he is John. Actually, John is more than wonderful. He is a quiet giant.
Pam
Surgeon also says that he will have to see about the ribs when he gets in there as one place is close to the ribs. We are of course praying that there will not be a need to disturb the ribs.
We were fortunate to receive prayer from a church in Redding, CA that has been having many wonderful healings. Many, many other churches and people have been praying as well, and I can't tell you what this means to us.
We have been doing very well. I have settled down a bit, been doing lots of praying and have had some good counsel. John is wonderful, just because he is John. Actually, John is more than wonderful. He is a quiet giant.
Pam
Sunday, November 29, 2009
A Set Back
If anyone is reading this, please pray for John. After going through so much last year, we were distressed to learn the day before Thanksgiving that his cancer has returned again in his left lung. Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday, December 9. After some healing, we will head to Indianapolis to see if there are treatment options as our local oncologist says we are in uncharted waters.
Although John remains in pretty good spirits, this has been a real blow to me and I am struggling big time. It is difficult to understand the purpose as we were so looking forward to having opportunities to serve as John was able and grow in our spiritual walk. The kids have been great but I sometimes think they are keeping it together because I certainly am not. Feeling like I'm really failing everyone. I know I am not alone in feeling deserted and wondering why God allows things like this to happen. We have prayed and prayed and felt like we received some words from Him but they aren't holding much meaning for me right now. I can rationalize everything in my mind and make the senselessness of it makes sense, but emotionally, I can make sense of it at all. I'm angry and hurt and feel like there is a hole in my heart.
Please pray for John's healing, for strength for all of us, and faith. I know God can do miracles but I don't understand why he hasn't.
Although John remains in pretty good spirits, this has been a real blow to me and I am struggling big time. It is difficult to understand the purpose as we were so looking forward to having opportunities to serve as John was able and grow in our spiritual walk. The kids have been great but I sometimes think they are keeping it together because I certainly am not. Feeling like I'm really failing everyone. I know I am not alone in feeling deserted and wondering why God allows things like this to happen. We have prayed and prayed and felt like we received some words from Him but they aren't holding much meaning for me right now. I can rationalize everything in my mind and make the senselessness of it makes sense, but emotionally, I can make sense of it at all. I'm angry and hurt and feel like there is a hole in my heart.
Please pray for John's healing, for strength for all of us, and faith. I know God can do miracles but I don't understand why he hasn't.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Keeping On
Wow! I knew it had been a long time since I posted, but I was pretty shocked to see that my last post was July 1! That was one day before my birthday. My poor parents forgot my birthday and I made the unfortunate choice to ask them a few days later if they had anything to say to me? Like, "Happy Birthday." I felt just terrible that I made them cry! I really just wanted to hear them say, "Happy Birthday," but when I thought about it, I would cry too if I forgot my childrens birthday! Oh my. Sorry, mom and dad.
Lots is going on in our home; some great, some good, some a little iffy.
John - The very great news is that John took the doctor's instructions to heart and started walking. It has made a tremendous difference in his stamina and strength and he has lost about 10 lbs. He continues to insist on cutting the lawn, although that is almost done for the year. He still has bad days where he feels weak and tired and moves somewhat slowly. It is hard when we have tasks and I'm in the go-go-go mode but mostly we just enjoy being together.
The somewhat disappointing news is that his tumor marker has been rising just a little with each check-up. Still, it was super low when chemo ended last winter and is still just 3.2. However, with the last little rise, he said it really took the wind out of his sails and several times a day he feels over-whelmed about the prospect of the possibility of additional treatment. He will have a PET scan next week. Please continue to pray for John: that his tumor marker doesn't budge again, his PET scan is totally clear, and he continues to walk and gain strength. Heck, while you're at it just pray that he has total, 100% restoration. I know God can do it!
Other great news is that our son, John (JR) is getting married this Sat, Oct. 10, to a lovely young woman, Mindy, and we're happy for both of them! We've been busy with wedding preparations, which have probably been a little more than normal for the groom's parents, because we're traveling to KY for the festivities and hosting a group of about 60-65 for a riverboat cruise prior to a barbecue and bonfire. Should be fun!
Also, our son was able to gain employment at a good job that he loves at his alma mater, Asbury College, in Wilmore, KY.
Daughter Audrey continues to plug away at school and be very involved in our church. She is looking forward to finishing her undergrad and is trying to decide where to continue her education. She was fortunate to travel to England for a week this summer and was given the "royal" treatment by her cousin, Anna, and her husband, Justin. THANKS ANNA AND JUSTIN!
Here is some other great news! God continues to teach us and enrich our lives beyond what we can measure and we're so looking forward to what he has to teach us in the future. I'm thrilled to tell you I received healing at church during our bible study! I feel like the past few years, I've requested prayer a lot and decided to just chill and not ask. We have about 30 minutes of prayer at the end of bible study and our teacher, the Prophetic Ministries pastor, asked if anyone felt God was working on their heart. I raised my hand because I just had to, and he asked several ladies to pray for me. I immediately felt like I was having a low blood sugar episode, where I get heat radiating through my body and feel like I'm going to pass out. I can also get dizzy and disoriented but wasn't this time. After a few moments, I realized this was not blood sugar but the Holy Spirit, and was concerned I would fall over backwards so I fell forward across the table and began to weep as they prayed. The feeling is pretty indescribable, and afterwards, I was wiped out. One of the ladies, who is on the church's prayer ministry team, said she felt God was really working on me. You see, for many months, in spite of taking anti-anxiety meds daily, I was really struggling with fear and my fear was growing. My crying and worry was affecting the family and my ability to function well. I felt real calm and peace following the prayer time. I knew the Lord had touched me! I had been praying for a long time for the Lord to manifest his power in a real way and he answered my prayer. Praise His Name! Since that time, I have weaned myself off my anxiety meds totally and am doing great!
Lord Jesus, do not forget your son, John, who loves you very much. Amen.
Grace and Peace to you.
Pam
Lots is going on in our home; some great, some good, some a little iffy.
John - The very great news is that John took the doctor's instructions to heart and started walking. It has made a tremendous difference in his stamina and strength and he has lost about 10 lbs. He continues to insist on cutting the lawn, although that is almost done for the year. He still has bad days where he feels weak and tired and moves somewhat slowly. It is hard when we have tasks and I'm in the go-go-go mode but mostly we just enjoy being together.
The somewhat disappointing news is that his tumor marker has been rising just a little with each check-up. Still, it was super low when chemo ended last winter and is still just 3.2. However, with the last little rise, he said it really took the wind out of his sails and several times a day he feels over-whelmed about the prospect of the possibility of additional treatment. He will have a PET scan next week. Please continue to pray for John: that his tumor marker doesn't budge again, his PET scan is totally clear, and he continues to walk and gain strength. Heck, while you're at it just pray that he has total, 100% restoration. I know God can do it!
Other great news is that our son, John (JR) is getting married this Sat, Oct. 10, to a lovely young woman, Mindy, and we're happy for both of them! We've been busy with wedding preparations, which have probably been a little more than normal for the groom's parents, because we're traveling to KY for the festivities and hosting a group of about 60-65 for a riverboat cruise prior to a barbecue and bonfire. Should be fun!
Also, our son was able to gain employment at a good job that he loves at his alma mater, Asbury College, in Wilmore, KY.
Daughter Audrey continues to plug away at school and be very involved in our church. She is looking forward to finishing her undergrad and is trying to decide where to continue her education. She was fortunate to travel to England for a week this summer and was given the "royal" treatment by her cousin, Anna, and her husband, Justin. THANKS ANNA AND JUSTIN!
Here is some other great news! God continues to teach us and enrich our lives beyond what we can measure and we're so looking forward to what he has to teach us in the future. I'm thrilled to tell you I received healing at church during our bible study! I feel like the past few years, I've requested prayer a lot and decided to just chill and not ask. We have about 30 minutes of prayer at the end of bible study and our teacher, the Prophetic Ministries pastor, asked if anyone felt God was working on their heart. I raised my hand because I just had to, and he asked several ladies to pray for me. I immediately felt like I was having a low blood sugar episode, where I get heat radiating through my body and feel like I'm going to pass out. I can also get dizzy and disoriented but wasn't this time. After a few moments, I realized this was not blood sugar but the Holy Spirit, and was concerned I would fall over backwards so I fell forward across the table and began to weep as they prayed. The feeling is pretty indescribable, and afterwards, I was wiped out. One of the ladies, who is on the church's prayer ministry team, said she felt God was really working on me. You see, for many months, in spite of taking anti-anxiety meds daily, I was really struggling with fear and my fear was growing. My crying and worry was affecting the family and my ability to function well. I felt real calm and peace following the prayer time. I knew the Lord had touched me! I had been praying for a long time for the Lord to manifest his power in a real way and he answered my prayer. Praise His Name! Since that time, I have weaned myself off my anxiety meds totally and am doing great!
Lord Jesus, do not forget your son, John, who loves you very much. Amen.
Grace and Peace to you.
Pam
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
OH PLEEEASE!
I'm sorry. I just had to say it.
Urgent! Michael Jackson's Will Filed in Court!
Ashton Kutcher Tweets for the White House!
THESE ARE HEADLINES?
DO WE CARE?
I think not!
Urgent! Michael Jackson's Will Filed in Court!
Ashton Kutcher Tweets for the White House!
THESE ARE HEADLINES?
DO WE CARE?
I think not!
Keep On Keeping On
I haven't updated in some time, but wanted anyone who might be reading to know that John's last check-ups were all good news and wonderful to hear! He remains in remission with a good, clean PET scan and although his tumor marker has gone up just a smidge, his counts are still well below normal.
He is working hard at work and feeling pretty worn out much of the time. While this has been a bit of a concern, we had to remind ourselves a few weeks ago that it had only been six months since his last chemo treatment (12-26). With that in perspective, we continue with faith that he will improve in strength and stamina.
We were able to take a few days last weekend and stay with our son's future in-laws in KY to work on some wedding plans. Yes, you read correctly. Son John (JR) finally popped the question to his lovely girlfriend, Mindy, and they will be married on October 10 at their church in KY. Because the church is quite small and limits the guest list, I think we're planning an encore reception in Dayton the week following. This will really be a souped up family reunion and our hope is for everyone to have a good time and visit with the newlyweds and one another.
Lovely daughter, Audrey, celebrated her 20th birthday on June 20th and finished summer school a few days after, completing the summer term with all A's at University of Dayton! Way to go, Audrey! (Although, we've come to expect nothing less from our scholar.) This was an appliance year for Audrey as she received a Kitchen Aide mixer from her special someone, Caleb, and was completely thrilled. She was also gifted with her grandma Marjorie's fancy computerized sewing machine that embroiders. She is pretty pumped about that too and ready to dig in with sewing lessons from mom and dad. According to her dad, next year she is getting a lawn mower.
John and I are participating in a Bible study on Wednesday nights for the summer that focuses on knowing the power of God. The two pastors who are co-leading are wonderful teachers and we're really enjoying it and growing in faith, understanding, and conviction to share our faith. God is good, and in the words of a cousin, "All the time, God is good, all the time!"
With that, I leave you with this joke.
A priest, a minister and a rabbi want to see who’s best at his job. So they each go into the woods, find a bear, and attempt to convert it. Later they get together. The priest begins:
“When I found the bear, I read to him from the Catechism and sprinkled him with holy water. Next week is his First Communion.”
“I found a bear by the stream,” says the minister, “and preached God’s holy word. The bear was so mesmerized that he let me baptize him.”
They both look down at the rabbi, who is lying on a gurney in a body cast.
“Looking back,” he says, “maybe I shouldn’t have started with the circumcision.”
Arrivederci!
Pam
He is working hard at work and feeling pretty worn out much of the time. While this has been a bit of a concern, we had to remind ourselves a few weeks ago that it had only been six months since his last chemo treatment (12-26). With that in perspective, we continue with faith that he will improve in strength and stamina.
We were able to take a few days last weekend and stay with our son's future in-laws in KY to work on some wedding plans. Yes, you read correctly. Son John (JR) finally popped the question to his lovely girlfriend, Mindy, and they will be married on October 10 at their church in KY. Because the church is quite small and limits the guest list, I think we're planning an encore reception in Dayton the week following. This will really be a souped up family reunion and our hope is for everyone to have a good time and visit with the newlyweds and one another.
Lovely daughter, Audrey, celebrated her 20th birthday on June 20th and finished summer school a few days after, completing the summer term with all A's at University of Dayton! Way to go, Audrey! (Although, we've come to expect nothing less from our scholar.) This was an appliance year for Audrey as she received a Kitchen Aide mixer from her special someone, Caleb, and was completely thrilled. She was also gifted with her grandma Marjorie's fancy computerized sewing machine that embroiders. She is pretty pumped about that too and ready to dig in with sewing lessons from mom and dad. According to her dad, next year she is getting a lawn mower.
John and I are participating in a Bible study on Wednesday nights for the summer that focuses on knowing the power of God. The two pastors who are co-leading are wonderful teachers and we're really enjoying it and growing in faith, understanding, and conviction to share our faith. God is good, and in the words of a cousin, "All the time, God is good, all the time!"
With that, I leave you with this joke.
A priest, a minister and a rabbi want to see who’s best at his job. So they each go into the woods, find a bear, and attempt to convert it. Later they get together. The priest begins:
“When I found the bear, I read to him from the Catechism and sprinkled him with holy water. Next week is his First Communion.”
“I found a bear by the stream,” says the minister, “and preached God’s holy word. The bear was so mesmerized that he let me baptize him.”
They both look down at the rabbi, who is lying on a gurney in a body cast.
“Looking back,” he says, “maybe I shouldn’t have started with the circumcision.”
Arrivederci!
Pam
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Looking Good!
Although John still needs to see the oncologist on the 15th for blood work, he had his PET scan today and the radiologist called him to report that everything looks very good! I can't begin to tell you how pleased we are! Praise the Lord! He is good!
We have even more good news at our house! JR has asked his lovely girlfriend, Mindy Lapish, for her hand in marriage and she accepted. So, in October, our family will be expanding and we are very pleased!
And we have even more good news! John has been feeling stronger and on Sunday, he decided he wanted to try cutting the front lawn (I had planned to do both our yard and my folk's) but he just kept on cutting and said he felt a little sore and tired but good! If you know John well, you know he is a pretty meticulous record keeper - which we used to tease him about but it does come in handy - and it had been 367 days since he last cut the grass. After that, we loaded our push mower up and he used it to trim my folks yard while I used their riding mower, as he felt the riding mower would jostle him around too much. That was a big day!
If you can believe it...we have even MORE good news! Our church held a prophetic and healing ministries conference last week. In an unprecedented act, we were able to attend the evening sessions of the conference for all three nights and also go to church on Saturday evening. John was a little pooped but felt that the conference was not to be missed - and he was right! As your can see, we have many, many things to be thankful for.
Back to the conference - I can hardly begin to describe all the wonderful things with many people receiving healing. John gets pretty tired of me dragging him up for healing prayer as he feels like he is healed but I keep telling him we can do better. The running line is that I want him to get thumped on the head, writhe on the floor and get up with a 25 year old body. Oh, and just FYI, all this extra energy and good report from the PET scan are following all the prayer at the conference.
We took so much away from the messages and there were wonderful times of praise and worship. Our daughter, Audrey, was a volunteer and spent time with the visiting pastors and church leadership who had good words for her. She had some pretty fantastic God experiences (I'm jealous), but we are so excited as to what the Lord has in store for her.
Although we are not supposed to predict Christ's coming, it does seem pretty obvious that we're in the end times. Rather than being separated from one another in our churches, God's people will be coming together as the remnant to minister to others. The pastors focused on developing our spiritual relationships, our spiritual gifts, pressing into the Holy Spirit and realizing and unleashing the power of God in our daily lives. Not for personal blessings, although no one would turn that away, but to be a blessing to others.
Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give. Matthew 10:7-9
Freely we have received the Holy Spirit, let us freely share it. It just makes you want to giggle with joy, doesn't it?
Amen!
Pam
Friday, May 22, 2009
It Has Been A While
I'm not even sure anyone is looking at this blog anymore. I've had so much on my mind and think, "I need to put that on the blog." but I never get around to it.
First things first...On June 2, John will be having a PET scan and we'll see the oncologist the week following. Please continue to pray that he stays cancer-free. I'm not even sure why I tell you what to pray - we all know what it is we want! I'm not quite sure what I'll do with myself if there is other news and the thought of John going through more of the whole mess is unsettling, perhaps overwhelming, to say the least. I must remind myself that His grace is sufficient.
God's grace is also abundant and we thank Him for the freedom to worship Him, for His son, Jesus Christ, and that we can talk to Him anytime, anywhere. We are truly thankful for His provisions for us. For the jobs coming John's way and for Pam's work. Yes, John is working pretty much full time now, it just seems to happen in chunks of time with rest breaks in between. He is pretty tuckered much of the time and I know it is a frustration to him that his abilities are fairly limited. Because sometimes we are forced to navigate life differently than we are used to or expected, a period of time is needed to accept the "new deal." We don't always like the new "normal" in our household but we work through it and move along the best we can.
Did I tell you about the busted pipes we had when we turned on our backyard faucet early spring? We had quite the kitchen flood under our floating, wood laminate floor and out into the carpet in the dining and family rooms on either end of the kitchen. I ended up having to tear out the kitchen floor and for now, we're living with the 70's red brick vinyl. Fortunately it was in pretty good shape but it just looks a little funny to have the door casings cut out where they accommodated the thicker, floating floor. Had some other leaks and we still can't use the outdoor faucet plus the hot tub has been on the fritz. We need to find some help with both those things as John enjoys the hot tub for his stiffness. Fortunately, I haven't missed the faucet too much as I have a rain barrel set up now and a small vegetable patch. Fun!
I have great ambitions to do a number of projects around the house this summer but John has us on a pretty tight budget (who isn't!) and I'm reluctant to use my vacation time. Probably the biggest drawback is my own self. On Mother's Day weekend I realized I had lost my edge, and I'm pretty sure it isn't coming back. The ole gal ain't what she used to be. It is very comforting to know that someday I will have a new body - and there will be no sickness, housework, household maintenance, lawn care, laundry, cooking...sounds sweet.
Relish this day, God's gift to you. Hmmm...yep, I need to focus on that as well.
Pam
First things first...On June 2, John will be having a PET scan and we'll see the oncologist the week following. Please continue to pray that he stays cancer-free. I'm not even sure why I tell you what to pray - we all know what it is we want! I'm not quite sure what I'll do with myself if there is other news and the thought of John going through more of the whole mess is unsettling, perhaps overwhelming, to say the least. I must remind myself that His grace is sufficient.
God's grace is also abundant and we thank Him for the freedom to worship Him, for His son, Jesus Christ, and that we can talk to Him anytime, anywhere. We are truly thankful for His provisions for us. For the jobs coming John's way and for Pam's work. Yes, John is working pretty much full time now, it just seems to happen in chunks of time with rest breaks in between. He is pretty tuckered much of the time and I know it is a frustration to him that his abilities are fairly limited. Because sometimes we are forced to navigate life differently than we are used to or expected, a period of time is needed to accept the "new deal." We don't always like the new "normal" in our household but we work through it and move along the best we can.
Did I tell you about the busted pipes we had when we turned on our backyard faucet early spring? We had quite the kitchen flood under our floating, wood laminate floor and out into the carpet in the dining and family rooms on either end of the kitchen. I ended up having to tear out the kitchen floor and for now, we're living with the 70's red brick vinyl. Fortunately it was in pretty good shape but it just looks a little funny to have the door casings cut out where they accommodated the thicker, floating floor. Had some other leaks and we still can't use the outdoor faucet plus the hot tub has been on the fritz. We need to find some help with both those things as John enjoys the hot tub for his stiffness. Fortunately, I haven't missed the faucet too much as I have a rain barrel set up now and a small vegetable patch. Fun!
I have great ambitions to do a number of projects around the house this summer but John has us on a pretty tight budget (who isn't!) and I'm reluctant to use my vacation time. Probably the biggest drawback is my own self. On Mother's Day weekend I realized I had lost my edge, and I'm pretty sure it isn't coming back. The ole gal ain't what she used to be. It is very comforting to know that someday I will have a new body - and there will be no sickness, housework, household maintenance, lawn care, laundry, cooking...sounds sweet.
Relish this day, God's gift to you. Hmmm...yep, I need to focus on that as well.
Pam
Friday, April 10, 2009
Fabulous News!
We received fabulous news yesterday that John remains in remission with a CEA (tumor marker) of .7! We are so very grateful and thank God for His many blessings. Please pray that this will continue.
We also found out that the broken rib was done intentionally during surgery and it doesn't appear that it needs to be repaired. The oncologist said it was up to John but we haven't asked the orthopedist or thoracic surgeon about it yet. Now that John knows what he is feeling, he isn't really inclined to endure another surgery.
The radiologist that has done all of John's scans called him about a roof yesterday and as he was sitting at what John calls his "Star Trek Command Center" at the hospital, the Dr. pulled up all his past scans and x-rays. He is the one who said the rib has been broken all along and also that John's lungs look healthier now than in the past.
We know we are not the only ones who face challenges and we encourage those of you who are to focus on God's faithfulness. It is comforting to know we are not walking this path alone and that He is there supporting us with every step.
Quote for the day: "If God allowed you to be thrown into a pit, you weren't picked on; you were picked out. God entrusted that suffering to you because He has faith in you. Live up to it. All the way up." Beth Moore, Get Out of That Pit
He is risen! He is risen indeed!
Easter Blessings,
Pam
We also found out that the broken rib was done intentionally during surgery and it doesn't appear that it needs to be repaired. The oncologist said it was up to John but we haven't asked the orthopedist or thoracic surgeon about it yet. Now that John knows what he is feeling, he isn't really inclined to endure another surgery.
The radiologist that has done all of John's scans called him about a roof yesterday and as he was sitting at what John calls his "Star Trek Command Center" at the hospital, the Dr. pulled up all his past scans and x-rays. He is the one who said the rib has been broken all along and also that John's lungs look healthier now than in the past.
We know we are not the only ones who face challenges and we encourage those of you who are to focus on God's faithfulness. It is comforting to know we are not walking this path alone and that He is there supporting us with every step.
Quote for the day: "If God allowed you to be thrown into a pit, you weren't picked on; you were picked out. God entrusted that suffering to you because He has faith in you. Live up to it. All the way up." Beth Moore, Get Out of That Pit
He is risen! He is risen indeed!
Easter Blessings,
Pam
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Troublesome Ribs
As you may or may not know, John has been having trouble the last five weeks with coughing and cold type symptoms. He improved but had a recurrence and saw the Dr. last week who felt he had bronchitis or walking pneumonia. He did the z-pak routine and improved but got a little worse after that finished so called the Dr. again for check.
They did xrays and saw some shadowing in the left lung that could be pneumonia or infection. Anyway, he is on another strong antibiotic and taking it a bit easy but doing ok.
The big reveal with the xrays was that the rib above the two missing ribs is broken. Not just broken but snapped completely in two and separated a full rib-width. We were pretty shocked and that would explain his ongoing pain. We don't know if this was done by the surgeons on purpose and they figured it would heal but something went wrong, or if they were not aware of it, or if it is something that happened after. The after part seems unlikely since he has felt something wasn't right in there since he began to mend from the thoracotomy. We're surprised the CT or MRI didn't reveal it but we were just all focusing on lung tissue and we don't know if those tests would show that type of thing.
We see the oncologist on Monday for the regular check and he will give us guidance as to what we need to do about the rib. Not looking forward to any surgical procedures.
What we really need prayer for is that he will remain in remission. That is the news we want to her from the Dr.
They did xrays and saw some shadowing in the left lung that could be pneumonia or infection. Anyway, he is on another strong antibiotic and taking it a bit easy but doing ok.
The big reveal with the xrays was that the rib above the two missing ribs is broken. Not just broken but snapped completely in two and separated a full rib-width. We were pretty shocked and that would explain his ongoing pain. We don't know if this was done by the surgeons on purpose and they figured it would heal but something went wrong, or if they were not aware of it, or if it is something that happened after. The after part seems unlikely since he has felt something wasn't right in there since he began to mend from the thoracotomy. We're surprised the CT or MRI didn't reveal it but we were just all focusing on lung tissue and we don't know if those tests would show that type of thing.
We see the oncologist on Monday for the regular check and he will give us guidance as to what we need to do about the rib. Not looking forward to any surgical procedures.
What we really need prayer for is that he will remain in remission. That is the news we want to her from the Dr.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tag! You're Pruned!
We had a family dinner on Sunday, delayed from Christmas as the extended family wanted to wait for John to feel better, which was sweet. Nice to see everyone and enjoy the lovely home of my cousin and his wife (although we all know it is the woman who creates the home!). Unfortunately, I felt under the weather due to a tooth infection and although it is not behind me, I am improving and see the dentist again on the 16th. All the antibiotics and pain meds have left me feeling out of kilter.
The dinner wore John out, even with our lovely driver handling transportation, and he spent Monday feeling extremely fatigued. JR did the driving for him to do some work things and also took me to the dentist. Tues was a MUCH better day and he seems to be springing back with a little more consistency. Thank you, Lord.
Missed bible study on Monday night due to tooth infection and son JR popping in from KY, but am doing my bookwork in preparation for next week and wanted to share these verses. We've all read them but they are really leaping off the page for me this time. I think I'm in a time of a severe pruning and it shows. The kids and John have been really loving and I'm very blessed by all of them - their guidance, counsel and wisdom - beyond their years.
John 15:1-17
The Vine and the Branches
1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunesa]">[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. 11I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. 14You are my friends if you do what I command. 15I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 17This is my command: Love each other.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Should She Or Not
Hi, everyone.
I tell you the truth, I don't know if I should continue the blog. While there are still updates to give about John, I have made few posts lately as I fear the blog will turn into an electronic therapist's couch. I guess I'm reluctant to take anyone there - I mean, sometimes people just need for others to be fine and I understand that. That said, I'll try to keep things at a comfortable level.
John continues to gain strength but it is a long, slow process. He tries to work some each day, unless he is having a really bad day. Really bad days involve camping out in the bathroom and are extremely fatiguing. I think we need to mount a small flat screen tv in there! On a positive note, he has been burning through his Bible reading like crazy! What is a bit unsettling is that the oncologist said he should be 80% back eight weeks after chemo. Tomorrow (3-6) is ten weeks since the last chemo and he is nowhere near 80% improved. We are trying to look at this logically and feel that it is rather optimistic to overcome six months of chemo, a bi-lateral thoracotomy, and blood clots in the lungs in eight weeks time. We still have lots of dinners in the family room as by the end of the day John's back has had it, but he works regularly at his physical therapy to strengthen the area where the ribs are missing. So, we press on and thank God for one another.
When chemo ended, I set a goal for us to take a mini-vacation end of February to see son, JR, in KY and spend the night at a nice hotel. We wanted to celebrate his 24th birthday as well as his girlfriend Mindy's birthday, as they are two days apart. So, last weekend we headed to Lexington with daughter Audrey doing the driving (bless you, Aud) We all had a good time of fellowship although it was a pretty tough trip for John. The drive and bathroom stops going down wore him out and by the time we finished lunch on Sat., we all decided the best thing to do was head to the hotel and get settled in. We had a nice suite and I took birthday cake, games and snacks and we ordered a pizza on Saturday night. We swam too but John was not able to join us. We did enjoy the free cocktail hour on Saturday and a great breakfast buffet on Sunday. Unfortunately, John was pretty miserable so we skipped church. We had so looked forward to going to John and Mindy's church and meeting their friends but that will have to wait for another time. Mindy and John made us a nice lunch at her apt. on Sunday and we were joined by her folks, Scott and Pam. It was great to be together, even with the challenges, and we're thankful our kids want to hang out with us! Audrey's boyfriend, Caleb, is in England so couldn't join us. We beat it home by dinner time on Sunday.
There are some new developments in the family. JR has become one of the many to join the ranks of the unemployed, having become the victim of cutbacks at the newspaper. While somewhat disconcerting, it was a bit of a blessing (at least to him!) as he had been carrying around a resignation letter in his pocket for about six weeks. Now he will qualify for unemployment. Since John never lacks for creative ideas, stay tuned to see where his road leads but pray he doesn't miss any road signs God may plant along the way.
Audrey is in the midst of mid-terms and I'm pretty sure once the thermometer hits 65 she'll be outside in her bathing suit trying to soak up some sun. There are baskets of knitting in just about every room of the house and I'm really glad she has this creative outlet. Audrey and Mindy have discussed a trip to England this summer and it would really be great if they can work something out.
I am really grateful for my job! There is so much going on with our conversion from quarters to semesters and I am really trying to stay engaged and redeem myself after missing so much these last nine months. The stress took its toll and I do have trouble concentrating.
I'm learning so much in my Bible study and am very thankful for getting to know the ladies at my table.
I want to encourage you in all your endeavors, to live well and with purpose for Him, keeping Christ in your heart in all things, and remind you that He is actually praying for you and interceding on your behalf to God. Keep fanning the flame of the Holy Spirit who dwells in you because you accepted Christ.
Blessings,
Pam
I tell you the truth, I don't know if I should continue the blog. While there are still updates to give about John, I have made few posts lately as I fear the blog will turn into an electronic therapist's couch. I guess I'm reluctant to take anyone there - I mean, sometimes people just need for others to be fine and I understand that. That said, I'll try to keep things at a comfortable level.
John continues to gain strength but it is a long, slow process. He tries to work some each day, unless he is having a really bad day. Really bad days involve camping out in the bathroom and are extremely fatiguing. I think we need to mount a small flat screen tv in there! On a positive note, he has been burning through his Bible reading like crazy! What is a bit unsettling is that the oncologist said he should be 80% back eight weeks after chemo. Tomorrow (3-6) is ten weeks since the last chemo and he is nowhere near 80% improved. We are trying to look at this logically and feel that it is rather optimistic to overcome six months of chemo, a bi-lateral thoracotomy, and blood clots in the lungs in eight weeks time. We still have lots of dinners in the family room as by the end of the day John's back has had it, but he works regularly at his physical therapy to strengthen the area where the ribs are missing. So, we press on and thank God for one another.
When chemo ended, I set a goal for us to take a mini-vacation end of February to see son, JR, in KY and spend the night at a nice hotel. We wanted to celebrate his 24th birthday as well as his girlfriend Mindy's birthday, as they are two days apart. So, last weekend we headed to Lexington with daughter Audrey doing the driving (bless you, Aud) We all had a good time of fellowship although it was a pretty tough trip for John. The drive and bathroom stops going down wore him out and by the time we finished lunch on Sat., we all decided the best thing to do was head to the hotel and get settled in. We had a nice suite and I took birthday cake, games and snacks and we ordered a pizza on Saturday night. We swam too but John was not able to join us. We did enjoy the free cocktail hour on Saturday and a great breakfast buffet on Sunday. Unfortunately, John was pretty miserable so we skipped church. We had so looked forward to going to John and Mindy's church and meeting their friends but that will have to wait for another time. Mindy and John made us a nice lunch at her apt. on Sunday and we were joined by her folks, Scott and Pam. It was great to be together, even with the challenges, and we're thankful our kids want to hang out with us! Audrey's boyfriend, Caleb, is in England so couldn't join us. We beat it home by dinner time on Sunday.
There are some new developments in the family. JR has become one of the many to join the ranks of the unemployed, having become the victim of cutbacks at the newspaper. While somewhat disconcerting, it was a bit of a blessing (at least to him!) as he had been carrying around a resignation letter in his pocket for about six weeks. Now he will qualify for unemployment. Since John never lacks for creative ideas, stay tuned to see where his road leads but pray he doesn't miss any road signs God may plant along the way.
Audrey is in the midst of mid-terms and I'm pretty sure once the thermometer hits 65 she'll be outside in her bathing suit trying to soak up some sun. There are baskets of knitting in just about every room of the house and I'm really glad she has this creative outlet. Audrey and Mindy have discussed a trip to England this summer and it would really be great if they can work something out.
I am really grateful for my job! There is so much going on with our conversion from quarters to semesters and I am really trying to stay engaged and redeem myself after missing so much these last nine months. The stress took its toll and I do have trouble concentrating.
I'm learning so much in my Bible study and am very thankful for getting to know the ladies at my table.
I want to encourage you in all your endeavors, to live well and with purpose for Him, keeping Christ in your heart in all things, and remind you that He is actually praying for you and interceding on your behalf to God. Keep fanning the flame of the Holy Spirit who dwells in you because you accepted Christ.
Blessings,
Pam
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Small Gains
No, I'm not talking about your stock portfolio, although I suspect everyone would be happy just to have some small gains at this point!
The small gains we are seeing relate to John. They are frustratingly slow (mostly for him, but fercryinoutloud it has only been a little over seven weeks since chemo ended. Today he saw an orthopedist to get some help with strengthening his back and shoulder. He'll begin physical therapy on Friday. We felt it was best to have a specialist analyze the situation before humping into a PT regimen.
Unfortunately, we still haven't made it to a regular church service as John had a cold and painful cough last week, but hopefully this will be our week. I can't wait! We have been going to bible study on Monday's but John has to miss this past week as he just didn't feel very well.
My study is pretty awesome and I'm really enjoying getting to know the ladies at my table. I will share the following verses with you that have meant a great deal to me the past few weeks.
The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still. Exodus 14:14
The small gains we are seeing relate to John. They are frustratingly slow (mostly for him, but fercryinoutloud it has only been a little over seven weeks since chemo ended. Today he saw an orthopedist to get some help with strengthening his back and shoulder. He'll begin physical therapy on Friday. We felt it was best to have a specialist analyze the situation before humping into a PT regimen.
Unfortunately, we still haven't made it to a regular church service as John had a cold and painful cough last week, but hopefully this will be our week. I can't wait! We have been going to bible study on Monday's but John has to miss this past week as he just didn't feel very well.
My study is pretty awesome and I'm really enjoying getting to know the ladies at my table. I will share the following verses with you that have meant a great deal to me the past few weeks.
You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons too; you cannot have a part in both the Lord's table and the table of demons. 1 Corinthians 10:21
For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him. 2 Chronicles 16:9The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still. Exodus 14:14
Monday, February 9, 2009
Just One Word
Today, we went for the oncology follow-up to John's PET scan on Friday. We really did pretty well getting through the several days of waiting. John always does well, but all-in-all, Pam did well with the wait too. God is working.
Your mama used to tell you the magic word was "please" or "thank you." Maybe you like to hear those magic words, "I love you." For us, the magic word is REMISSION! We give God all the glory and praise that that is the word we heard today!
The Dr. said the PET scan did not reveal any cancerous areas and the spots on the CT scan were likely either the dead tissue or lymph nodes that are shrinking. We will see the Dr. again in two months and he said we need to stay healthy for two years. Guess that is the magic number to improve our chances for more REMISSION.
John is still quite tired with little energy. He would like to begin work soon but his days will be short for a good while. We are trying to get PT set up again so that he can get his back muscles strengthened without blowing out all the hernias on his tummy. That is a little beyond our scope. He also needs to be continuing work on his shoulder from the surgery in September.
So, there are things to do. Pam has many verses to share with you but that will have to be saved for another day.
With tears of great joy!
John and Pam
Your mama used to tell you the magic word was "please" or "thank you." Maybe you like to hear those magic words, "I love you." For us, the magic word is REMISSION! We give God all the glory and praise that that is the word we heard today!
The Dr. said the PET scan did not reveal any cancerous areas and the spots on the CT scan were likely either the dead tissue or lymph nodes that are shrinking. We will see the Dr. again in two months and he said we need to stay healthy for two years. Guess that is the magic number to improve our chances for more REMISSION.
John is still quite tired with little energy. He would like to begin work soon but his days will be short for a good while. We are trying to get PT set up again so that he can get his back muscles strengthened without blowing out all the hernias on his tummy. That is a little beyond our scope. He also needs to be continuing work on his shoulder from the surgery in September.
So, there are things to do. Pam has many verses to share with you but that will have to be saved for another day.
With tears of great joy!
John and Pam
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Oncology Appt.
Wanted to let everyone know that we saw the oncologist this morning. We did not hear the word "remission" unfortunately, but we are trying not to get worked up about anything until we get a PET scan next week.
If I understand things correctly, they are watching two small areas that the radiologist did not mention to us from the CT scan he had last week. The PET scan will give us more information about what the areas are. They can either be dead tumor that the body has not absorbed, small tumors, or enlarged lymph nodes as that is how they feel the cancer likely spread from the colon in the first place - through the lymphatic system.
The outcome will help the Dr. decide if we do nothing, get maintenance chemo (every three weeks with supposedly minor side effects), or do more chemo. Additional, regular chemo is the last choice according to the Dr.
This was a bit discouraging, although John takes everything with his usual good humor while I invariably have a panic attack. My panic attacks are physically like riding a roller coaster and coming to the part where the coaster car has a long and abrupt vertical drop at a high rate of speed. If panic attacks burned calories, I'd be Twiggy.
Please pray about the upcoming PET scan. Also, we should be getting the tumor marker test results in the next day or so. Last one had gone from .5 to 1.5 which is still below normal and they say it can fluctuate, but we sure don't want to see it going up.
On a positive note, we have been attending men's and women's bible studies at our church and really enjoying them. John did not feel well this last Monday so we did not go, but Pam was able to download the video from hers and keep up. John's study is "The Quest for Authentic Manhood." Mine is Beth Moore's "A Woman's Heart." This is a great study on the tabernacle and the symbolism is pretty amazing. It is really challenging me spiritually and God has something to say to me weekly. He is powerful!
We are still trying to get somewhat back to normal at home and some days are better than others. Cancer recovery is sort of like the wintry days we're having. Some days the sun is shining and you hear a few birds singing even though it is really cold outside. Other days, the roads refreeze and are filled with bumpy ruts and there is ice on the sidewalk. In other words, recovery ranges somewhere between tolerable and yuck!
We pray for you and covet your prayers for us.
Pam
If I understand things correctly, they are watching two small areas that the radiologist did not mention to us from the CT scan he had last week. The PET scan will give us more information about what the areas are. They can either be dead tumor that the body has not absorbed, small tumors, or enlarged lymph nodes as that is how they feel the cancer likely spread from the colon in the first place - through the lymphatic system.
The outcome will help the Dr. decide if we do nothing, get maintenance chemo (every three weeks with supposedly minor side effects), or do more chemo. Additional, regular chemo is the last choice according to the Dr.
This was a bit discouraging, although John takes everything with his usual good humor while I invariably have a panic attack. My panic attacks are physically like riding a roller coaster and coming to the part where the coaster car has a long and abrupt vertical drop at a high rate of speed. If panic attacks burned calories, I'd be Twiggy.
Please pray about the upcoming PET scan. Also, we should be getting the tumor marker test results in the next day or so. Last one had gone from .5 to 1.5 which is still below normal and they say it can fluctuate, but we sure don't want to see it going up.
On a positive note, we have been attending men's and women's bible studies at our church and really enjoying them. John did not feel well this last Monday so we did not go, but Pam was able to download the video from hers and keep up. John's study is "The Quest for Authentic Manhood." Mine is Beth Moore's "A Woman's Heart." This is a great study on the tabernacle and the symbolism is pretty amazing. It is really challenging me spiritually and God has something to say to me weekly. He is powerful!
We are still trying to get somewhat back to normal at home and some days are better than others. Cancer recovery is sort of like the wintry days we're having. Some days the sun is shining and you hear a few birds singing even though it is really cold outside. Other days, the roads refreeze and are filled with bumpy ruts and there is ice on the sidewalk. In other words, recovery ranges somewhere between tolerable and yuck!
We pray for you and covet your prayers for us.
Pam
Friday, January 16, 2009
Good Things
Ok, so I coined that one from Martha, but we have experienced some good things so it works.
John is turning the chemo corner and feeling better. Praise God! It is wonderful to have him show up in the kitchen, stand next to me and help out at the sink or stove. He even got behind the wheel and has done some driving - the first time since Nov. 4! Audrey and I have been privileged to have him drop us at WSU and UD for work and school during this very cold weather. He's the man!
With trying to assume some semblance of normalcy, I have not posted as often here. Last weekend I was feeling pressured, self induced of course, and thought I'd post under the title of "Every Day Can't Be Great." Hence, the photo of Eva and Wall-E above. Audrey's boyfriend, Caleb, gave us the action figures for Christmas as a funny little gift. Actually, I considered it a great compliment because of how in love and devoted to one another Eva and Wall-E were in the movie. Of course, we have no idea how they truly are in real life. But I digress - so back to the photo. In my moment(s) of stress, I felt like I needed some space and when this happens, I often hold out my arms, turn around in a circle, and inform my family that they have to stay out of my circle. As an additional warning, I attached Eva's laser gun accessory and changed her eyes to the angry setting. Fortunately, this mood doesn't usually last too long. Comically, Wall-E looks strikingly like John does when the hooey hits the fan. Poor guy.
The green band is my Christmas gift to John and the kids. After everything that we have been through, I wanted something to remind us daily that we are bound together as a family and through Christ Jesus, our Savior, and through Him we have hope.
Psalm 20
1 May the LORD answer you when you are in distress;may the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
2 May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
3 May he remember all your sacrifices
and accept your burnt offerings.
Selah
4 May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.
5 We will shout for joy when you are victorious
and will lift up our banners in the name of our God.
May the LORD grant all your requests.
6 Now I know that the LORD saves his anointed;
he answers him from his holy heaven
with the saving power of his right hand.
7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.
8 They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.
9 O LORD, save the king!
Answer us when we call!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Improving
John is improving and feeling better. Tomorrow, Sunday, January 4, he will be one week out from his last infusion of chemo. He has been pretty miserable the last week but today he feels like he is turning the corner and has been up and about quite a bit, puttering at his desk, unloading the dishwasher, and getting the mail. It is very nice to have him participating in home life more actively, but the best thing is that he feels more like chatting with me and he makes jokes! Tonight I asked him what he wanted me to make him (for dinner). His response, "Rich and good looking!"
School starts Monday for Audrey and she is getting some energy back so I'm not concerned about her managing the load of classes. She was thrilled with her class selection and we hope she adjusts well.
JR has a job prospect so please keep him in your prayers. It sounds like a very good fit but he is a young candidate.
John will have a CT scan sometime the week of Jan. 26 and see the oncologist the following week. We're holding fast to our faith.
I have had my struggles here and there both emotionally and physically, but am able to get a few things checked by the Dr. now that things at home are settling down. It is pretty amazing what stress can do to the body and my empathy has grown exponentially for those caring for a chronically ill loved one and single moms who have to manage the household on their own.
God bless us, everyone.
School starts Monday for Audrey and she is getting some energy back so I'm not concerned about her managing the load of classes. She was thrilled with her class selection and we hope she adjusts well.
JR has a job prospect so please keep him in your prayers. It sounds like a very good fit but he is a young candidate.
John will have a CT scan sometime the week of Jan. 26 and see the oncologist the following week. We're holding fast to our faith.
I have had my struggles here and there both emotionally and physically, but am able to get a few things checked by the Dr. now that things at home are settling down. It is pretty amazing what stress can do to the body and my empathy has grown exponentially for those caring for a chronically ill loved one and single moms who have to manage the household on their own.
God bless us, everyone.
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