Difficult Day

John came through surgery very well. He was resting in the ICU when we left him at 9:40 pm and he felt that it was a good day. He was happy to put the day behind him and was pleased that he had better mobility in his arms than his surgery last year and the surgeon did feel that his recovery would be a bit faster this go around.

Unfortunately, the prayers we have prayed have not been answered in the ways we have asked...first, that the Holy Spirit would manifest in a way that gave us assurance of healing, and more recently, that the surgeon would find nothing when he operated today and would be mystified.

In actuality, three places were found, one of which did not show up on the last CT scan. It could have been too small or new. All were confirmed cancerous. A portion of rib also had to be removed, so he is somewhat swiss cheese like on both sides.

The reality is that we don't really have anymore surgical options. We will have to see if the folks at Indiana University have treatment options for us and we're praying they do and that John responds well.

John is in good spirits. He is a real champion. I can't say enough about this gentle man and I am honored that he chose me to be his wife 27 years ago. We still feel like kids in love.

I was really grateful to have the kids with me today and other family and friends. They held me up. The kids are real pillars. They must have a really great dad who trained them well!

As son JR said today, Emanuel, God with us.